Found this somewhere on the net a while back (before pinterest so not sure where) and thought I’d share it with you all… 1. Teach him the words for how he feels. Your son will scream out of frustration and … Continue reading
After yesterday’s meltdown (can’t that all of you enough for the words of encourage and just simply “listening” to my vent, means more than you know) I decided I should keep fish home for the day and spend some one … Continue reading
If the weather matched my mood today it would be a crisis as we’d have a class TEN hurricane on our hands. Destructive, dangerous to be around, a little calm in the middle and then it hits you hard again … Continue reading
Hi ho hi ho it’s off to see my shrink I go.
Now let me tell you something… I’ll let you in on a little secret…
This being sane and being societies normal is a ridiculously expensive monthly necissity. Not kidding you – R2000 a month, and that’s with buying the generic form of all my meds!
We were chatting about weightloss in our dinnerclub group last night and came to the conclusion that losing weight and staying skinny is a bloody expensive luxury. There’s the gym fees, the healthy food (I mean a pack of pasta feeds a fills more people for less than a salad) the new clothes when the others don’t fit anymore etc etc…
So I have come to the conclusion that you can have me one of two ways – a skinny bipolar and irritable bitch, or a much more stable and happy fattie ;)
I can’t afford to be both, hell, I can barely afford to be the one as it is!
The other day I decided it was time to stop making excuses, dig out my uber bright nikes and GO RUN. Well i’ve been keeping up with it and am pretty damn impressed and proud of myself!
So I’m only doing 2km a day (thats a straight, no break 2km!) but it’s a start.
Tonight I’m hurting a little… I parked up near the greenpoint stadium then took a run past the breakwater parking and round the back past q5. Then STeven and Jacques decided the jetboat needs a trial run after the modifications they made to the engines and I decided to tag along…
Best way to describe it is riding a horse, but not just riding – jumping. Never been riding? Well then imagine those wall squats – the ones with your back up against the wall with legs bent like you’re sitting on an invisible chair – with me now?
Now try doing that for 2 hours straight…
And then I had to go fetch the car, so the mornings run in reverse. And uphill!
So yes, I’ll admit I’m hurting a bit, but it’s a good kind of hurting :)
I feel like in my 24 years on this planet I’ve had more life lessons than possible for one person to endure.
The latest of which is not to make friends with your boss. I have nothing bad to say, simply that it was a tough lesson.
I’m 24 but I have more responsibilities and experiences than many people double my age, I don’t regret or wish I could take any of it back because even my mistakes have led me to where I am and will lead me to where I’m going. The one thing I am acutely aware of is that I am a doormat. Or at least people tend to think I’m one.
I’m a nice person (with a bitchy streak yes i know) and I find it hard to say NO and actually mean it, hell all the loafers in my home prove that haha! But it is starting to be my downfall. I need to learn to stand up for myself better, to put my size 6 foot down when I need to instead of just smiling and putting up with it all. I need to know my worth.
I am me and I am strong and I deserve a hell of a lot better than this.
So, here is tomy first step towards being more confident and less of a push over.
tattoo i got with an old friend last year
So you say you can’t do it?
So it’s impossible?
Well obviously someone forgot to tell this guy that…
Yes he thanks god and is rather religious and we know i’m no happy clapper BUT listen to what he says – “i found my strength in jesus, whatever you find your strength in is yours.”
It’s 2012 and we’re just over half way done with it, this means that in less than 4 years it’s my 10 year high school reunion… OH MY STARS?! 4 years to go? Are you kidding me? Well… I better … Continue reading
Had the most chilled out afternoon with my psychotic crazy but gorgeous friend @aimeebabylove, her too precious for words daughter (who still hasn’t quite warmed up to me), step son (who fish adores), just as crazy hubby and the rest of the family.
Nothing warms your heart more than a friends british dad saying he has friends who would be more than happy to pay the spermdonor a visit… Makes me all warm and fuzzy inside haha!
Now to curl up in bed with fishness and watch “afro circus“ :)
night lovelies!
