3am rambles

you’re insane ‘they’ said.
she believed them.
she let it consume her.
she let it define her.

You don’t understand.
You never will.

Spoken words take on a life, they are able to morph into pernicious blades of fear. They can capture and torture you, make you bleed and form deep caverns of self loathing.

You don’t understand.
You never will.

You say “get over yourself” as if it were that easy. As if it was simply mind over matter.

You don’t understand.
You never will.

Words are the key to unlocking that which we so desperately desire but sometimes our key is stolen by the same thing that created it in the first place.

You don’t understand.
You never will.

You tell me that i hold the key to my own happiness as if it were easy to reach. As if keys didn’t come in an abundance of of shapes and sizes. Instead you believe that my happiness is as easily attained and unlocked with yours.

You don’t understand.
You never will.

Perhaps i know the words.
Perhaps i hold the key.
What you fail to comprehend is that my key is so very often too large to hold onto on my own.

Wrote this at 3am this morning so excuse the bad grammar and/or spelling errors. I haven’t been sleeping much at all lately and when i say that i mean at most i’ve had 3 hours a day. It’s affecting my thoughts, my sanity and most likely my health as well :'(

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2 thoughts on “3am rambles

  1. A POEM BOOK IN THE MAKING? try using Lavender oil, put a drop or 2 on ur pillow its supposed to help u sleep or u can go to the baby section of Pnp or clicks they have a lavender range for kids to help sleep johnson and johnson – creams and bodywash maybe try that?

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