Cyclothymia, also called cyclothymic disorder is a type of chronic mood disorder widely considered to be a more chronic but milder or subthreshold form of bipolar disorder.
I saw the psychiatrist yesterday, firstly I really miss the private sector where the psychiatrist actually listens to you (or pretends to anyway.) I often feel like I’m talking to the walls when it comes to my current psych, sure he listens but we just don’t gel if you know what I mean and I know that’s important, I just don’t have many options. He’s a good guy, I think he’s just overly busy with seeing so many patients.
Regardless, we had a chat about how hard the last month and a bit has been and that the past few weeks it’s just been getting worse. Me in tears trying to explain this while he’s making coffee. It’s hard. But as it turns out he’s suspects that we can add cyclothymia to my list of issues. It explains a lot, and it’s not common but it can accompany borderline personality disorder. Thankfully I’m not bipolar, even though bipolar is treated a lot easier than a chronic disorder is at least it’s more “stable”. Yay me, I just keep chalking them up. BUT it means that I have something to work on, new coping mechanisms are going to be needed and old ones tweaked along with my medication which has been upped but now there’s a diagnosis and
we I can work on it.
The one thing I need to keep remembering is that it’s not my fault.