i has the blogging sads

I feel like I’ve been failing as a blogger lately, I hardly post and when I have stuff to post I simply don’t feel like it. The blogging world has become so fickle and judgey, not that I really give a damn but it does make it unpleasant to write when people send you bitchy […]


I’m so mad now. I’m furious. Not at her but at this fucking disease and all the people who think it’s all in your mind and that it’s easy to just get over and deal with it. I’m mad at myself for not being a better friend, I’m mad because I live so fucking far […]

it’s okay. the tshirt.

Depresssion, borderline personality disorder, self harm, addiction. All these things are stigmatised and not talked about but they are real as the people who suffer from them. Thankfully there are people out there who care and who dedicate their lives to helping these people. Recently I hit a REALLY dark time, it was bad, it […]

it’s okay. the book

I watched To write love on her arms (the movie) this weekend and it struck a very big chord with me. If you are/know/love someone with an addiction/disorder/who self harms then PLEASE make an effort to watch it. Because of it my doodles were a little more personal and I doodled a little girl holding […]


Cyclothymia, also called cyclothymic disorder is a type of chronic mood disorder widely considered to be a more chronic but milder or subthreshold form of bipolar disorder. I saw the psychiatrist yesterday, firstly I really miss the private sector where the psychiatrist actually listens to you (or pretends to anyway.) I often feel like I’m […]

cotton head

My brain is fuzzy, it’s been fuzzy for a few days now which I guess is better than the depro it’s been for the last 3 weeks but fuzzy is horrible to deal with. Making sense of anything is difficult. Trying to write this is difficult. Working is difficult. I hate it. It probably doesn’t help […]


It’s alright if I take a moment to punch the wall and scream and cry into a pillow right? I just sent the minion to bed a half hour early because I simply can not deal today. I have been feeling “wishy washy” all day and it just got progressively worse. By the time home-time […]